Something Nubian

Today, my daughter turned 15 years old!

And I am on my second day home from the hospital. There were so many reasons to turn down the date of the surgery but everything after the date was set, went well.

I was instructed to start a liquid diet two weeks prior to the date and it was a struggle a first but about seven days into it I remembered my why and the U-N-I-Verse began to show me some things!

Like all the times I did not want to fast or think outside the box to do so. Here I am three whole weeks without meat, cheese, or pasta. Things I could never imagine being without.

I learned meal replacements are real. I drank three per day and had three other options and drinks likes broth, yogurt and I tried the Jell-O but truth be told, it made me gag!

And I had less flares , eating less food.

Every doctor told me it was my weight, I told them it was not! Because it wasn’t, it was the food I had been eating. Even the foods they suggest cause flares.

And this is why so many people choose the most expensive healthy way to live which is a holistic plant based diet. Not the one that is genetically modified but the one we grow ourselves.

My favorite quote comes from the movie Player’s Club

Because I don’t trust anybodys information but my own

Diamond, played by LisaRay McCoy

When the nurse called to tell me we needed to set up the date of surgery I asked for a different date. I just wanted another day to eat cake and ice cream but that is what this is all about.

My eating habits

I have grown a whole person mentally, physically, and spiritually since I learned that the dis-ease fibromyalgia was changing all the ways I lived life.

I could not do the things I set out to do, I became secluded and allowed it to manage me, instead of me managing it.

Today, it was really hard for me to NOT watch my daughter eat her favorite food and blow out her candles. But I am alive to say that I am the one who ordered her cake and paid for it so that she could do so.

My husband made sure she had at least one of us to make her smile with the gifts she asked for. We sacrificed this day for another, her 16th birthday party next year.

I wanted to get healthy and I could no longer put it off another moment, so I put all my fears aside and scheduled the Bariatric surgery.

It took two years to get here.

First, the pandemic shut down all the states once I made up my mind to do it, then all my approvals from other specialists expired and my health began to decline.

My heart was working at 35%, developed sleep apnea where I would stop breathing 21 times an hour and I developed a condition that no one can name or find and it makes me look like I am making it up each time I see a new specialist.

All of these things are keeping me from doing my absolute best thinking, sleeping, focusing and living.

What have I done before agreeing to the surgery?

I had a not so great diet but paid for a gym membership that I frequented and walked almost daily; however, later on I would be in bed in pain all over for days. I would miss work and have to reschedule appointments and my children’s homeschool lesson plans.

I reached out to my Primary Care Physician, what did they do? Prescribe more medicine that would cause drowsiness and weight gain and sometimes depression, anxiety and inflammation.

I suggested water therapy and asked them to point me in the right direction, apparently health, healing and restoration can only come from going to church because my cries fell on deaf ears. Till this day, I could not tell you where a rehab facility to help me is located. At least expecting a returned email or phone call has not been successful.

Thus surgery.

I reached out to the surgeon again and advised this has to be the way. I need a reset

When we set up the dates, I was in tears. If I did not take those particular dates I would have had to wait for several more weeks.

So many other things were happening and if I kept putting it off, it maybe another two years and my children may not have had a mother and my husband may not have had a wife then.

Fibromyalgia can not kill you, however it can kill your dreams, visions, aspirations and self love. I give up every day on myself and try to be there for everyone else but during my birthday month (last month) I gave it all I had.

I invested in myself mentally, physically and spiritually.

During the Full (Flower) Moon in Libra , Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio and Cinco De Mayo (5th of May)!

My daughter that turned 15 and is like a flower child, my moon sign is Libra. my oldest daughter is a Scorpio and I love Mexican food! Hey, that’s me!

This is the season to let it all go and become new again. So that is what I did!

I let them go have a great time. I journaled, listened to a good book and channeled my energy into something positive while my body is healing the way it should.

Check out this new 10 Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio Prompts for Shadow Work that I created to commemorate letting things go and healing your old self.

Sending positive inner-G