By La Trecia Doyle-Thaxton aka Reiki RaEss @somethingnubian.com
I was raised around ideas of heaven and hell, God and the devil, good versus evil.
Like many people, I accepted those ideas because they were handed to me long before I was old enough to examine them for myself.
Then I started asking questions.
Not because I wanted to argue.
Not because I wanted to rebel.
Because I wanted to understand.
The more I observed the world around me, the more I noticed something that kept returning to my spirit.
No matter how people described the devil, I kept hearing the same themes.
Sometimes the devil became the excuse.
Sometimes the antagonist.
Sometimes an invisible influence.
Sometimes the darkness within ourselves.
And I found myself asking one question over and over again.
Where does accountability live?
If I make a choice…
Is it mine?
If I hurt someone…
Is that my responsibility?
If I heal…
Who made that decision?
That question quietly changed everything.
I realized I wasn’t struggling to believe in the Creator.
I was struggling to hold onto a framework that no longer aligned with what I was experiencing.
I believe there is right and wrong.
Truth and lies.
Harmony and imbalance.
Creation and destruction.
Above and below.
I simply no longer see those realities through the exact lens I was handed.
Instead of asking what invisible being is responsible, I ask:
What produced this?
Who benefits from this?
Does this create peace or division?
What choice am I making today?
Those questions have brought me closer to myself than fear ever did.
One thing I don’t teach my children is that someone else is responsible for every outcome.
I teach them that the Creator gave them senses, awareness, curiosity, discernment, and the ability to grow.
Knowledge.
Wisdom.
Understanding.
Then comes choice.
And with every choice comes responsibility.
That doesn’t mean life is always fair.
It doesn’t mean harmful influences don’t exist.
It simply means I refuse to surrender my accountability to anything outside of myself.
As I continued studying different cultures and spiritual traditions, I noticed something else.
Symbols carry different meanings depending on the people using them.
One culture may see blessing where another remembers pain.
One person sees hope.
Another sees fear.
That reminded me that symbols are powerful, but people give them direction.
The same is true for crystals.
Some people dismiss them.
Others cherish them.
For me, crystals are reminders.
They reconnect me with the earth that created them.
They encourage intention.
Presence.
Reflection.
Just as tending a garden reminds me that growth requires patience, tending my inner life reminds me that healing requires participation.
Neither the crystal nor the garden does the work for me.
I still have to choose.
That realization has become one of the greatest gifts of my spiritual journey.
I don’t embrace every belief.
I embrace the opportunity to learn from many perspectives.
Knowledge tells me what someone believes.
Wisdom helps me understand why.
Understanding allows me to learn without losing myself.
That is the path I want my children to inherit.
Not fear.
Not blind agreement.
Not borrowed certainty.
Discernment.
Responsibility.
Compassion.
And the courage to ask questions that lead them closer to truth instead of farther from themselves.
For me, the Creator is not discovered through fear.
The Creator is experienced through life itself.
In the rhythm of the seasons.
The wisdom of plants.
The cycles of the moon.
The lessons hidden inside mistakes.
The quiet moments of reflection.
And every opportunity to choose truth over illusion.
That is the God I know.
Not because someone convinced me.
Because life continues to reveal the Creator every single day.
✨ I Don’t Believe In God, Because I Know God. I share the same Creator as the plants and the planets, living, breathing, and aligned with the cycles of creation.
~ ReikiRaEss 🪬
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