Something Nubian

The question asked what I’m most scared to do.
The answer came fast, no hesitation: believe in myself 100%.

Not try.
Not hope.
Not “almost.”

One hundred percent.

That kind of belief feels heavier than doubt because it removes the safety net. If I believe in myself fully, I can’t hide behind timing, other people, or spiritual language that sounds wise but keeps me stalled. Full belief means I’m responsible for what happens next. And that’s the part we don’t talk about enough.

When I asked myself what it would take to actually do it, the answer surprised me again: that’s the million-dollar question. Not because I don’t know what I’m capable of, but because belief isn’t a thought, it’s a decision. And decisions require embodiment.

The Solar Plexus chakra teaches that confidence isn’t loud. It’s steady. It lives in the body as trust, not bravado. When I check in with myself honestly, the hesitation shows up in my gut, not my mind. That tightness isn’t fear of failure. It’s fear of not being able to unsee my own power once I fully claim it.

Believing in myself 100% would mean I stop negotiating with my worth. It would mean acting before I feel “ready,” choosing myself without a witness, and letting my actions become the proof I keep asking for. That’s uncomfortable. But discomfort is not a warning. Sometimes it’s confirmation.

So maybe the million-dollar question isn’t what would it take to believe in myself.
Maybe it’s what would I have to let go of if I did.
And right now, the answer is becoming clearer:
I’d have to release the habit of shrinking to feel safe.

I’d have to trust that my inner authority is enough.
I’d have to stand in my own light without flinching.

That’s not easy work.
But it is honest work.
And honesty is where real power begins. 💛

~Reiki RaEss