A Full Moon in Scorpio Reflection on Transformation & Truth
There’s something about Scorpio energy that don’t play. It doesn’t care how long you’ve been hiding your truth — when this full moon hits, it pulls it all up. And on May 12, 2025, the moon will be full in the sign of Scorpio, the sign of the underworld, the unseen, the unspoken… and the unapologetically transformed.
So it’s only right that I share this part of my story — the one where I walked away from church, lit a blunt, and lit up a whole new part of myself in the process.
🚪 Leaving Church Wasn’t the Escape — It Was the Entrance
When I left the church, I started smoking weed again. Not for fun. Not for peer pressure. But because something deep inside me was gasping for air. I hadn’t smoked since before I left Austin. But the funny thing is — I didn’t even smoke until I got put on probation. Ain’t that wild?
I was stressed about possibly going to prison, and the pressure made me feel like I was losing it. Weed gave me a space to breathe. But it also gave me something I wasn’t ready for…
Clarity.
Every time I smoked, I started feeling energy — from people I’d never met, from moments I hadn’t lived yet, from wounds that weren’t fully healed. It was like my intuition had been waiting on me to be still.
That’s when I realized: I was an empath.
🙅🏾♀️ I Wasn’t the “Nice Girl” Anymore — And That’s What Scared Them
Once I stopped showing up the way they expected — folks started to flip.
I was the one who made the church programs and service tapes. They gave me a computer to do it, but when it stopped working, I returned it. Simple. Or so I thought.
Next thing I know, I’m getting phone calls that felt more like interrogations. “Did you break it? Are you still helping? Why haven’t we heard from you?”
And just like that, the girl who gave her time freely became the girl they no longer trusted.
What they didn’t know was I had already told them I’d be doing less — I had moved 45 minutes away, started school, and was working full-time. But when you stop playing the role that made people comfortable, they don’t see your truth. They only see your absence.
🌕 Full Moon Truth: Weed Wasn’t the Gateway — I Was
They called it a “gateway drug.” Nah. I was the gateway.
Weed didn’t make me unholy. It made me aware. I was finally hearing my own soul — above all the doctrine, all the duty, all the distractions. And with every puff, I reclaimed a piece of myself.
This Full Moon in Scorpio invites you to do the same.
🪬 The Gateway Ritual: Reclaiming You
Affirmation:
“I no longer shrink to be accepted. I am expanding to be aligned.”
Ritual (Full Moon Night):
- Light a candle or incense (mugwort, lavender, frankincense are great choices)
- Sit in stillness and journal:
- What roles have I been playing that no longer feel like me?
- Where have I been misunderstood — and how did I internalize it?
- What truth am I ready to live louder?
- End with this breathwork: Inhale “I am safe to be me.” Exhale “I release who I no longer need to be.”
🌀 [Download the full Gateway Ritual card here]
By La Trecia the Positive Inner-G and Journal Therapy Coach | Something NuBian
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