Something Nubian

By Reiki RaEss

There was a time when even the thought of questioning my faith filled me with terror. I remember vividly the moment a rapper boldly stated, ‘Jesus did not exist.’ My heart raced, and for a split second, I braced myself for the ground to open up and swallow me whole. But nothing happened.

That moment sparked a profound realization: the fear I felt wasn’t my own. It was instilled by those who believed so deeply that they couldn’t bear the thought of others evolving beyond the walls they had built around their faith. They wanted me to stay in that space of fear with them, afraid to let go, afraid to grow.

As I continued my journey, I began to question not just my faith, but the entire system that demanded unquestioning belief. I noticed how many religious people, despite preaching faith in God’s healing, rely heavily on modern medicine—especially in the face of so many accidental deaths and health crises. This reliance contradicted the very faith they claimed to uphold.

My lack of belief in Jesus is not rooted in atheism but in the truths that have been withheld. His real name, the deliberate misrepresentation of his appearance versus the biblical description, and the historical alterations made to maintain control made me see him as not real.

Researching the origins of religious figures, learning how religion was historically used to control the uneducated, and understanding how powerful our own voices and thoughts are opened my eyes. The verse where Jesus said, ‘Ye are gods,’ became my anchor. It reminded me that my voice, my thoughts, and my existence are just as powerful and important.

The more I learned, the more I grew. My journey led me to embrace Reiki, a practice that brings me profound peace as I heal my past, present, and future. I no longer seek to make others understand my path because I realize that understanding is a choice they must make for themselves.

Choosing to step away from the church and remain steadfast in my spiritual journey wasn’t easy, but it was necessary. I respect others’ beliefs and ask for the same respect in return. My silence in the face of challenges speaks louder than any explanation ever could.

This blog is for those who feel the weight of questions they are too afraid to ask. I want you to know that fear often comes from those who are afraid to evolve themselves. They cling to what is familiar, not because it is right, but because letting go feels impossible.

Your journey is your own. Embrace it. Question without fear. Grow without limits. And know that you are not alone.

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