Something Nubian

I participated in a 21 day prosperity and abundance chakra medication. It was moving. I couldn’t wait until the next day. Each day helped me to understand where my gifts are as far as understanding chakras and how they have helped me since I began learning about it.

I was introduced to Chakras about 11 years ago by a rapper that I admired. She was and is really outspoken. Somehow we grew apart but I accepted her presence as she came into my life for a reason. She gifted me the Sacred Woman book by Queen Afua and she said that she could not get into it or it was not for her, I really do not remember and that is why I can mention her name because I respect her enough to not misquote her.

This rapper, let’s just call her Araminta. This was one of her Facebook names at one time. I had no idea who that was and when I found out I realized maybe this book was not for her. She was on something else in her journey, while I was still on this “finding myself path” I started back in 2003. Araminta “Harriet Tubman” Ross, was found and was living in her purpose as a saver of slaves. I was a slave to something else and she helped to deliver me to freedom.

So for the sake of my estranged friend, I am grateful. I am grateful she was so giving and it was me, she gave this book to. As black women we are so different but we are beautiful in every bit of our struggle in this life. Which brings me back to my experience on this 21 day meditation, we should not be struggling. We should seek joy, not speak death in our lives saying that in order to thrive there should be a trial involved. I choose to look at the glass half full each time.

We spend a lot of time fighting in the struggle that we forget to take a look at who we are and what we are capable of. We have the ability to combat our fears without a battle and heal our pasts by taking it into our own hands like the Goddess Sekhmet. Our words have power and the more words are spoken negatively the less positivity will be received. Start by speaking life into your life and business. This will definitely combat Revelations.

I learned during these last 21 days that in life a made many mistakes in my own mind and I think I made a wrong turn back there somewhere. I was led to believe my whole life that without pain, gain would not ever manifest. And I think of those who suffered during slavery, those who were stripped from their family; parents, siblings, spouses and children! That struggle is what I gained from because slavery is no longer a legal act in public anymore. But what did they gain?

We look at each other as black men and women and wonder if we are related because we look so much alike and we have never met. I experience this a lot especially since I moved from Texas to Florida then Georgia. And with each move I learn more about the Trans Atlantic Slave Trade and how we are divided on if it even happened! That struggle is really real, nothing is gained from that. And yet I want to get off the struggle bus and see the positivity in the present because by looking in the past it makes all black people feel afraid their future is bound to be more struggle. The only gain I can see about slaves and their trials is their descendants lived on and their voices are being heard through them.

By allowing the spirit to move through us (our Chakras) we are able to overcome struggle and seek joy, knowledge, wisdom and understanding from clues of our ancestors. It is hard for some to believe they are their ancestors dream when society makes them feel like if they do not have taken over the master’s mansion they have not truly arrived.

We are proud of who we are but find it hard to be proud of each other as individuals, especially as equals. We lack the ability to cheer each other on like doing well for others means to be left on the plantation by another when we all have the ability to walk off individually and equally. Is this passed down through DNA into our chakras?

It makes me wonder if my ancestors are dealing with me through fibromyalgia. For some, this may be far fetched by many believe it caused by trauma. Is it true or not true that slavery existed? Could my lack of sympathy for it until I was well into my thirties have brought this on?

The pains of the past in my waking life seems to be something that haunted me later in years but could it be the strikes on the backs of slaves have shown up in those of us affected by it? Do you know the pressure points in fibromyalgia? Living with this condition is hard to see joy when there is so much struggle to just get out of bed, like a slave the next day after being beaten.

I am definitely not saying this illness is related to blacks because slavery because we are all connected to the past conditions in America. However, a particular group of people have this illness and trauma could be the culprit.

I was angry when I truly understood what I later learned the truths about it and then that others don’t even believe took place. I was angry, then got angry again when others began to say it was all a hoax, when I know something happened! And then diagnosed a couple of years later.

It is a fact that especially black Americans start out with very little inheritance and are under insured. Which makes me question if this were different in police killing blacks? Insurance companies would be struggling to pay and it wouldn’t shock me when the police are found not guilty, give them a reason not to pay, like it’s an act of God.

So, my contribution to getting off the struggle bus is to take what I gained in the 21 day prosperity and abundance meditation is to practice daily, speak life not death daily, journal daily and plan to do better daily

Sending positive energy.