Something Nubian

As a Hip-Hop head,  I reference a lot of songs ( and tv). I like everyone else find them relatable, what can I say I love music.

I disappear sometimes; I wish that I could do that in real life but this is the life that I take it out on the most. Writing is my fantasy life, it is where I can get away from it all yet still be myself, or the self I may want to be in five years.

“when I make the attempt and fail (miserably) I shut down and allow my fears to lead”

I am an entrepreneur, author, and mother who homeschools her children; that will not change! Sometimes all those hats I wear take precedence over my ability to write each and every day but never stops me from coming back to visit.

I  have had a birthday and so has my first book!

Many opportunities have presented themselves the way I had anticipated. I had hoped my ability to write would bring me closer to financial freedom and breaking generational curses. In the eyes of some, I am not where I should be but I smile and humbly accept I am not where I use to be.

My children are being educated by me and my village instead of a system that is not even concerned that most students are not aware Egypt is in Africa! You would be shocked to know that some high schoolers are not properly educated in geography. Or would you?

Unfortunately, when I disappear it is to reassemble or I am just busy. I loathe that my writing takes the hit mostly.  I take notes here and there, but I am always writing but not publishing.

I admire those who can speak in the now and that is definitely where I would love to be in five years, not just coming out and doing so but doing it zealously!

One of the curses that I have to engage each day is fear, and overcoming it! I have conquered a lot of obstacles in my lifetime but being shy but basophobia mentally, physically and spiritually is top – they say you fail when you do not try so for the most part, I make the attempt and do okay.

Which brings me to part of the absence, when I make the attempt and fail (miserably) I shut down and allow my fears to lead. Sometimes it takes a while to get back up and writing was not where I was not making the cut, it was allowing another person to tell me I wasn’t doing something right and my inability to accept their way of saying it. I mean really, is there a right and a wrong way to advise someone they’ve come a long way but took the wrong direction?

I refuse to allow my emotions to kill my determination, the fire inside is not blazing the same, however, the right tools can ignite the flame back instantly. In the meantime, I tabled one idea and an old opportunity presented itself and a new one emerged that appeared to align my planets surrounding this New Moon!

Namaste